am listening to the american idols on youtube.. the final 6 guys together.. michael johns sounds so cool.. he shouldn't have been kicked out so early.. now listening to both davids singing hero.. wooo! they are amazing.. still think david archuleta should have won..

anyways.. this is to declare that i'm bored.. bored bored bored.. haha .. i need things to do.. lagi this week school hols.. sigh.. bored bored bored..

will update again soon.. was distracted from updated just now..

more pics of the play.. =)

more pics! i think i might have put this at large.. my official pic.. plus my cast n crew pic.. we had lots more.. just need to find them all..

production crew

i think this is the coolest production crew in the world.. they are so awesome.. i didn't need to worry about things getting done becos i knew i could rely on them when they said they would do something.. i had an awesome time working with them during this play..and hopefully working with them for many more! =)

gosh.. i'm so depressed.. not because my play is over.. but because of this UK trip thingy..i mean i was so excited to go on the trip in the beginning.. but now it's sounding less and less fun.. and they've been having more and more meetings on days when i can't make it.. and they say this should be my priority.. yes that would b in the ideal world.. but lately i've been doing so much more in the kindergarten that it's almost impossible to get out more often.. even for my play i could not direct due to the fact that i just did not have the time to do so..

i really dunno what to do.. i'm in such a dilemma now.. i know they are all pissed off with me for not being there for this life time opportunity.. yes it is a life time opportunity .. but i also have my career to think about.. my parents need me at work.. and i can't just keep cancelling due to the fact that parents do not like it.. i mean say for example u r paying for something and it keeps getting cancelled or moved.. what would u say? of cos u'd be peeved with the teacher..

i just don't get it why they can't have meetings on days other days.. yes it does sound selfish to be wanting that.. but most of the others are not working.. still studying.. which means that they have more free time than those that work.. isn't that logical? i dunno.. maybe i'm being unreasonable..

oh well.. tomorrow nite.. 9pm.. i'm probably gonna get into deep trouble for not being at the meetings.. i need to keep a straight face.. not cry.. dun break down..listen to them.. let them talk more than me.. i mean no matter what i say they are going to take it the wrong way anyways and argue back.. so what's the point of arguing?

maybe i shouldn't have put my classes at night.. but that's my income .. is it too much to ask for that i have to earn a living? i dunno.. well tonite there is gonna be no sleep for me again.. i'm gonna be sooooo nervous.. how ah..

too many things have changed.. maybe i'm just in a different zone from all these others.. as i talked to some frens earlier.. maybe they are just too into what they are doing to see the big picture at times.. when i compare them to my Livewire buddies.. they fall flat all the time.. my Livewire crew are just awesome.. i can walk into a room with them and within a few minutes be laughing my head off.. and really having a good time..

i find that i'm not the type of person to stay in a project for a long time.. with Coming out of the closet i found myself wanting to start on the next project just as that one was ending.. maybe i'm the restless type.. hmmm...i dunno..

ok i'm fearing tomorrow's meeting more n more now.. how la like this? i can't sleep now.. crap.. why didn't they sms me in the morning.. i guess tonite is time for a lot of prayers and just trying to find my way thru all this already.. i feel so blind all the time.. need to think clear.. but how to do so if i'm exhausted.. hmmm...

Coming out of the closet..

the play of cos.. gosh.. i can't believe it's all over.. from start to finish.. it's all over.. i think i'm getting post production depression... which is so not good.. i can't wait to start on the next one!! this production has again confirmed that theatre is definitely the way to go for me.. yes i know it's not very good in malaysia.. and that it's basically impossible to earn a living here.. but it doesn't mean that it cannot be done.. it can.. it just needs a lot of hard work and effort..

anyways.. back to the play.. this was the first play i'd written and produced.. gosh.. it was hard work.. but it was lots of fun too.. from writing to casting of actors, to all the production meetings, to rehearsals, to show time, to confrontations, to putting together a piece of theatre that i am truly proud of.. this is my first attempt.. so there was always going to be problems.. but as my team says.. 'livewire ppl cannot do anything the easy way.. everything must be done the hard way' *laughs*.. that is so true.

i want to thank each person individually.. i usually write up a whole thank you list on my blog.. except nobody except adlina knows about it.. any suggestions on how to show my appreciation?..

back to the show.. we had 2 sold out nights.. and the rest were pretty full.. which was a relief.. ppl are really supportive to come and watch my play.. including nat nat!.. even tho u thought it was long.. i'm glad u still enjoyed it..

to the next play.. it might be in december.. then gin chee can come watch eh? =)

will update more again with pics next time!!